You know that moment when you know- as you are making the decision- this one will affect the REST. OF. OUR. LIVES. We’re in one of those. I’ve been chasing the dream for a year now. Trying to provide for the family I so love. Trying to get us ahead of the game. However- all I’ve succeeded at is more turmoil and unrest. So now it’s time to take stock and disengage. I’m here to pledge to the world- but more importantly- my family- mommy is done trying to define herself outside the home.
To my four littles- God has given me one job in this life- to raise you up in his image. I’ve not been great at that- in fact the last year I have STUNK at it. I am going to be better at my God given position in life.
To my sweet hubs- I have stepped on your toes on so many occasions this past year. I have not listened to your concerns, I have put my agenda above yours. I have not trusted you and have not respected your place as the spiritual leader of our home. I am sorry. I will honor and obey you- submit to your authority. Most of all I will be more approachable and seek your council more appropriately.
To my God- I will listen closer to what you are saying to me. I will seek you out in your Word, and in Prayer. I will cleave to the position in life you have given me- and seek joy and fulfillment in purely that place in the home and in the world.
Lastly to the others in my life. I have been stingy this year. I haven’t been available to you all. I haven’t been able to serve as I’m used to doing. I have been busy, flaky, moody, just a general bore. That changes today.
My prayer today is that my heart will be ready to accept where God wants to put me. I’m torn down to the quick and this is where I will stay- silent and peaceful til God shows me where he needs me.
Love to you all!





I have reblogged a lot lately.  If that bugs you….SORRY!!!  There is a lot of good content out there that is close to my heart.  I could a) try rewriting it and passing it off as my own, or b) give due credit to it’s original poster by just highlighting it here.

Here summer is…on the dawn of the 4th of July Holiday, in the clearing smoke from the fire in Herriman, I’m left to wonder what happens from here.  Sure we may not do fireworks this year…truth be told, I can’t tell you the last time we purchased fireworks…oh yeah…it was that year Rain was 4 and an errant super tanker firework zoned in on her and spit purple popping beads of fire and noise at her…good times…good times.  Anyway…

We may not light fireworks but there is a bigger question here…what if…?  What if we lived closer to the fire, not nestled safely in our little neighborhood?  What if we had purchased that home up on the hill side cuz Lord (and our family and realtor) knows we looked at plenty of them!  What if?  My worries would scale much bigger than “gee, no fireworks this year”.  It lead me to ponder…is my house in order?  Not just on a physical sense, but on a bigger scale.  Things are just that…things.  But have McDaddy and I prepared our family biblically for disaster?  In my the hail of my questions, I came across this blog post and wanted to share it.

In the end, (to quote the blog) Anyone can build a house of wood or stone, but it takes love to build a home.

My prayer for the families affected by this catastrophe is that they can find comfort in what they do have instead of what they lost…..


If you had only a few minutes to gather up a few select treasures of your life before fleeing a raging inferno, what would you take – and what would you leave behind?

Families in Colorado Springs were faced with this very question this past Tuesday. In just a matter of minutes, a wildfire that had been contained in canyons bordering the city swept down through the hillsides.  The sky, which had been sunny, turned red. Ash and cinders rained down for miles in every direction.

One of my colleagues, Paul Batura, who was on vacation and painting inside his house in the affected area, said the scene appeared apocalyptic.

“After securing our three little boys,” he wrote, “we ran from room to room. Some dear friends from a mile away appeared like angels on our doorsteps, and assisted with the mad dash. A few boxes of pictures, a wedding album, keepsakes from the boys’ births, and a file drawer of family records was all time allowed us to gather. In a flash we were gone as our street became enveloped in smoke. Eleven years of marriage and our respective and collective lives reduced to what two cars could carry.”

Over 32,000 people were evacuated from their neighborhoods in Colorado Springs Tuesday afternoon. Where Jean and I live, is still out of the line of fire, but our neighbors to the west are not so fortunate. More people are expected to be evacuated and impacted by nightfall. Focus on the Family, if you’re wondering, is also not under any evacuation order.

What does it do to a person to flee their home from a raging fire with only minutes to spare?  To listen to those who have done so is to be reminded that it does quite a lot, especially force one to prioritize.

“You’re reminded again what’s most important,” one of the evacuees reflected. “Life can change in an instant. We might think we know what lies beyond sight, but we don’t.”

Tragedy of this kind is shocking and devastating, of course, but it’s not a new development. Scripture reminds us that the rain falls on the just and unjust, and there is often no explanation what the Lord allows some people to suffer more (or so it seems) than others.

The city of Colorado Springs is in mourning as hundreds of families are faced with the reality of coming “home” to a pile of smoldering embers.

Paul, who is still unsure of his family’s housing fate, was lying awake last night, his emotions ravaged and raw, wondering what was happening just a few miles away. As he watched the news video, he said, of the houses being consumed by fire, he was reminded of what his late mom used to say:

“Anyone can build a house of wood or stone, but it takes love to build a home.”

As a body of believers, we may feel bruised at times, but with Jesus by our side, “we are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed” (2 Cor 4:8-9)

Please join me in praying for all the victims of this fire and the many others who are facing similar challenges all around the country.

Read the original here…


Until next brag…



Let’s Keep Easter Easter

This past year and a half my main WIN (see more here on a WIN) has been to simplify.  I hunger for simplicity in life, in things, in mind.  This last Christmas, I (think) successfully removed our family from the crazy that is Christmas with my first Consumerism Sit Out.  We hand made gifts, and few they were.  WE  brought the focus back to what Christmas REALLY is…a little baby in a manger 2000 years ago.  Fast forward to now.  I started thinking about Easter.  We spend MONTHS preparing for Christmas yet Easter always seems to be an afterthought.  Every year about a week before Easter, I look at McD and say…crap.  What are we doing for Easter??!!  So in true Easter style, I started thinking last week…Crap.  What are we doing for Easter??!!  As usual, He provides and He provided in the form of a Sunday Sermon where our clergy shared the Resurrection Eggs with the children.  THEY LOVED IT!  So, on Sunday, we are doing them again….in Ashleigh form of course!  Here it is:

You will need:

a yummy breakfast bread…So we can break bread when we find it.

4 dimes (cuz I have 4 kids)

4 swatches of purple minkee

a crown of thorns (look at Hobby Lobby)

a big rope

a cross

4 nails-big ones

a piece of card stock- this is to make a sign that says “KING OF THE JEWS”

4 pieces of sponge

4 spears…I used little arrows from a dollar store toy then just cut the “feathers” at the end off so it looked like a spear

1 big round rock

4 big eggs- to have them find with nothing in them for the empty tomb.

1 Rubbermaid Tote (to store this all)

My plan is to hide each of these items around the house and yard…instead of eggs.  I plan to have them find the bread bring it back, and as we eat it, we will read the correlating passage. (Don’t worry those are next).

So there you have it!  I want this to be as interactive as possible…hence the bigger items and multiples of a few items.  Maybe its the Montessori in me, but I want them to touch, feel, breathe, eat, and smell the story!

Oh, and don’t panic, here are the passages….

Bread: Matthew 26:26- While they were eating Jesus took a piece of bread,
gave a prayer of thanks, broke it, and gave it to His disciples.
“Take and eat it,” He said, “This is My body

Dimes– Matthew 26: 14-15 hen one of the twelve disciples, named Judas Iscariot, went to
the chief priests and asked, “What will you give me if I betray
Jesus to you?” They counted out thirty silver coins and gave
them to him.”

Purple Minkee’s– Mark 15:17- They put a purple robe on Jesus…

Crown of Thorns– Matt 27:29- Then they made a crown out of thorny branches and placed it on
His head, and put a stick on His right hand; then they knelt
before Him and made fun of Him. “Long live the King, of the
Jews!” they said.

Rope– Mark 15:15- Pilate wanted to please the crowd, so he set Barabbas free for
them. Then he had Jesus whipped and handed Him over to be

Cross – John 19: 17-18- This year I’ll use a bracelet with a cross on it, but I want McD to make me a wood cross

He went out, carrying His cross, and came to “The Place of the
Skull,” as it is called. (In Hebrew it is called “Galgotha.”) There
they crucified Him.

Nails-John 20:25b  Thomas said to them, Unless I see the scars of the nails in His hands and put my finger on those scars and my hand in His side, I will not believe.”

Sign– Luke 23:38
Above Him were written these words: THIS IS THE KING OF

Sponge– Matthew 27:48

One of them ran up at once, took a sponge, soaked it in cheap
wine, put it on the end of a stick, and tried to make Him drink it.

Spear– John 19:34

One of the soldiers plunged his spear into Jesus’ side, and at
once blood and water poured out.

Rock– Matthew 27:59-60
Joseph took the body, wrapped it in a new linen sheet, and
placed it in his own new tomb, which he had just recently dug
out of solid rock. Then he rolled a large stone across the
entrance to the tomb and went away.

Nothing– Matt 28:6
He is not here. He has risen just as He said.

There you go!  I apologize for the no pics….I’ll get some up when we do this on Sunday!
Until next brag……